I'm watching you now, i'm watching you now, do you see me?

You've been dancing to a beat i could sweat my heart out to, say, i could sit here and sweat for the both of us but the shaking takes the edge away. Before i met you the thoughts you give me made me so afraid, i thought maybe God would hate me, and i taught myself to rip the day down. But you paint the picture so beautifully, an image of my honesty and i want to drown in your vodka, and your carisma and your charming. Something about you says i'm not afraid, and we're sitting in the darkest room, alone but surrounded by strangers, and i'm asking myself why they don't disapear. I disapear. I am point 5 inches high and slipping through gaps in your mind, like ants to the ground or a coin to the sea, do you see me?

your sleeping with your head back, back high against the wall, like a golden son and i picture the pride in your parents. I'm watching you and your eyes don't open, you feel so easy at your peace, with your peace and you dancing now in my mind. I hate myself for watching you, i hate myself for feeling what i'm feeling and not fighting what feels so beautiful. I wish i could crawl inside you and become you, just for the day, or the week and not be afraid. Catch me on your hand, sit me on your tounge, tell me that i'm ok, tell me that the future is nothing boy, your in my head boy.

She's a bitch she knows nothing, but she wakes you up, don't let her wake you up, please don't let her wake you up. I found a sea inside your sleeping and it's vastness is my illusion. I have never been so afraid with the idea of being with someone, but so complete with the idea of it making sence. she takes you away and your riding a train back to london.

I'm watching you now, i'm watching you now, do you see me? you changed me. I'd like to think we think in twin, that you wern't fucking, your friend, the [ ].

Your too beautiful for dirty thoughts, we take our anger out on bigger men, the boys i don't know, and will never know the name of. His name is no one, His name is sex, his name is breathless at my wrong doing. He's watching me now, He's watching me now, do you see me?

the fairy tale you left inside my tiny fragile mind is gone. The credits run. The pretty thoughts are cum and sweat now and it's sliding down his face, and it's sliding down my face. You never said before you left that if i follow your idea, i would be brought to tears, by men i'll never know. You never told me that the other boys arn;t beautiful, before i let them use me, pretending they were you. Take it back.

He's watching me now, He's watching me now, do you see me?

-x-

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